27th February 2017
I am writing again. It is remarkably therapeutic to put my thoughts and feelings into words and share them like this. Reading back through the earlier blogs I can see when I let my emotions get the better of me – I know that really doesn’t help. I need to keep focused on my family. The children were upset yesterday and I know that they were picking up my vibes.
I had a long chat with Mum earlier. I didn’t want to tell her about “Amelia” as I thought she’d start criticising James again, but she was surprisingly gentle. Her advice was to let it all out, scream if I need to but then focus again on what I can control.
The next step is to call Marilyn about what to put in the petition about James’s unreasonable behaviour, hand over my marriage certificate and start thinking about where we are going to live.