25th February 2017
I want to curl up into a tiny ball and sleep. I feel so numb inside. I have no tears and I can’t talk about it any more because I have nothing to new to say. It’s the same thing going around and around inside my head. I simply cannot believe that James is with someone else. That he’s rejected everything that we had together so quickly and so easily.
I keep thinking about my babies. I really hoped that they would see Mummy and Daddy talking and working things out together, that things would seem as normal as possible. But now they’re going to see Daddy with someone else: how are they going to react? They won’t understand any of this and they’ve been through enough without this added confusion. I wanted to protect them and reassure them that they are our number 1 priority. Will James have time for them any more? Will he be too busy to see them? This is not what I wanted for any of us.