10th March 2018
So much change in my life in the past year and yet here I am, sitting in a soft play centre with a coffee in hand, watching my children have a wonderful time with their friends. It’s this normality that I relish: time playing with Lottie and Dylan or walking the dog around the lake, and waffles for a treat..! Despite the split from James, I’m still a very lucky woman to have the time and opportunity to enjoy these moments – The ‘new normal’.
The children seem a little bit more settled which helps me relax about the divorce. Dylan still asks me to go with them to James’ house but Lottie distracts him. She understands that mummy and daddy are no longer together and acts as my protector whenever she can. They’ve stopped asking me when will Daddy come home and seem comfortable that he’s not around the house. There are still a few nightmares but I don’t know how much of this is natural, part of growing up, and how much is related to the changes that they have experienced. I still feel guilty but I know that I’ve done the right thing for us all.