22nd June 2017
My emotions are all over the place at the moment. I’m confused, I’m angry, I’m sad, and then I feel positive about the future again. Then that cycle repeats itself all over again. And again.
In one of my “I’m in control” moments, I realised that I really don’t want to move out of this house. The children are happy here: it’s where they’ve lived their whole lives. Their friends are nearby and Mum and Dad are close enough to help me out. I’ve looked and looked for other houses but none of them feel right or work for us geographically. I’ve gone over finances with Marilyn and she’s advised me about seeing an financial advisor to find out what my mortgage capacity is. I’m hoping I can raise enough to cover the mortgage and then get James released from it Thank goodness for Marilyn, she’s getting to know me and my life inside and out, giving me relevant advice about all aspects of it.
I’m thinking about talking it over with James so he hears direct from me that I’d like to stay in the house. Can I find the right time for this? Will it help or will he just get cross. He was quite insistent that the house has to sell but I think it’s time that he realised that it’s one upheaval that we do not have to put the children through. They can stay in their own home and Lottie can continue at school. And it would make me happy. Surely there are enough reasons that even James can understand the benefits?