10th July 2017
Last night was the first time in over 2 years that I haven’t had my children at home with me. It was the strangest feeling. Thankfully, Ellie took me out for dinner to take my mind off things for a while. It was so good to see her and to talk about something other than work, the children or the divorce. She was trying to encourage me to talk to some random man in the bar but that really isn’t my style. But, we did laugh a lot and discuss a girls weekend in the Autumn once things have settled down.
The strange part was when I got home, I went to check on the children; a habit I suppose. Their beds were empty and I cried over that. It’s something that I’ve just got to get used to. The children have a lot to get used to as well… I suppose that they will have two of a number of things as there’s no point carting clothes and toothbrushes between the houses.
This morning I had a long bath, read the newspaper, tidied up and am now waiting for James to bring them home. He’s off out for lunch somewhere so is bringing them back around midday. That suits me fine – Sunday would feel like a long day without them.