20th January 2017
It’s been awhile since I updated this blog as I needed time to think. On Marilyn’s advice I’ve spoken to Mum and Dad and to my best friend. It was interesting to hear their thoughts.
Mum wasn’t surprised at all. She knew that things weren’t great and she was waiting for me to talk to her about it. Actually, she was brilliant. Pragmatic, supportive and a good shoulder to cry on. Dad was also supportive but I could tell that he was disappointed. I know he likes James and the fact that he is a good “provider”, but life has changed and as a family we need more than that. I need more than that.
Ellie, however, couldn’t contain her happiness. She’s so cross with James for upsetting me so many times. She thinks that I should just get on with a divorce and then find someone new who treats me as I deserve. She seems to have forgotten that we’ve been together since university and it made me sad to hear her tell me what a waste it’s all been. We had fun in the beginning and he is the father of my children. I know she cares about me – I’m just not ready to become so negative about it all. I want James and I to remain friends. If we can.